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Irregular, bumpy, brutal

Yesterday was a bit ROUGH for me (something you'll RARELY hear me say.) I believe that MY tough times have the ability to powerfully impact my mood because my difficult days are little to none. However, the fact that they are so few and far between works as motivation to power through the unpleasant thoughts and feelings too!


SO WHAT WAS WRONG?

HOW DID I FEEL?

WHAT DID I DECIDE TO DO?


SO WHAT WAS WRONG?

Is it just me or do menstrual cycles SUCK....PERIOD! 😂 (pun intended, BARZZZZ)

So it's that time for me and while ANY OTHER DAY I'd lack emotion and operate in a passive fashion, YESTERDAY was just NOT one of those days (more like the ones Monica was mentioning in the 90s🥴).


HOW DID I FEEL?

I felt anxiety, pressure, lethargy, I needed a hug! The only person who has been hugging me since December 2022 is my nephew with his occasional love spurts 🥹.

I missed my man, being catered to, and the days when work was OPTIONAL. I missed the "you hungry?" check-ins and foot rubs. The chest to lay on... I needed MY MAN😩

It was a MESS CIAOOOO😮‍💨.


WHAT DID I DECIDE TO DO?

I started to pray. I prayed and I PRAYED SOME MORE . Now idk how you pray but my father and I have a real genuine relationship. I'll tell you a bit of the conversation..


Me: God...🥺

God: making his presence known came to listen* 👂

Me: God...🥺... I'm not feeling this.. I don't wan(GOD INTERRUPTED)

God: Get Up.

Me: ( YALL I AM whining, sighing, rolling around my bed) I don't want toooooo😫😖😢

God: Get. Up.


So at this point in my life I TRYYY to not talk back to God that much, some days are better than others. But this day it was 2-3 times and I listened. I got up and I got OUT



If you'd like to read more of this story show some love give me some feedback and I'll tell you😊 I love y'all 🧡

Moral of the story TRUST GOD y'all 💯

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